Someone Looking out for Me!

(Another Covid-19 realisation)

I have always believed in a higher someone looking out for me, and still do. I also truly believe that I was born lucky and that good fortune continues to follow and envelop me all my life, but never have I felt this more than during these Covid times! While I knew I had this higher someone looking out for me, I completely forgot about the someone right here looking out for me; or as I go on to discover, the many ‘someones’! But, as you would know about me if you’ve been reading my previous articles, I am again digressing, so let me get to the specifics. Covid started for me with a bang; I faced the decision about whether or not to get my son back from the US, and we had only 2-3 days to take the decision. My husband, children and I just couldn’t take a call and were agonising and procrastinating, and time was running out. At this time, a certain someone, (let’s call this person X) took matters into her hand, including deciding the airline and flight, and gave us a deadline to book, failing which X would do it herself. I never realised then how freeing and significant it was to have the decision taken out of my hands, particularly for me. X truly was a Godsend at that particular time, but again let me come back to this later. Time went on and with the above resolved, new Covid-related challenges came up. A personal matter relating to one of my family members deeply affected me, and I happened to be speaking to one of my clients (Y) the very next day. Y noticed that I was not being my usual self and spent the next 40 minutes coaching me through my emotions and triggers regarding the said matter. Where did Y come from? On that particular day and time when I was at my lowest and darkest? I am convinced that if I had not had the conversation with Y at that time, I would have wallowed in self-pity and guilt for many days, affecting the very family I had set out to protect. Of course, another Angel! And then, there was the biggest one in store for me. I have traditionally always been casual, sometimes careless, about my work and career, in terms of sacrificing and putting the needs of the family above my career. Once again during these last weeks, several times I was tempted to put aside my work and look after more pressing needs of my family. Cue for Z to step in! I have known Z for several years, professionally at first, but she has just recently taken it unto herself to fulfil the roles of my coach, mentor, guide and most trusted friend when it comes to my work, never charging me a penny. Looking back, I now clearly find that I started my training profession thanks to the insistence of Z, and every step I have taken in the last nine years has been at gentle prodding by her. In this instance, Z not only coached and in fact, disallowed me to give in to the temptation to postpone my career goals once again, she very effortlessly took over some of my stress points regarding my family. I didn’t even realise the magnanimity and empathy of Z in doing so at that time. Looking back at not just the 8 weeks, but the last 9 years, I now realise that Z has been my guardian angel right from the very beginning! She has just very unobtrusively been there for me, and I know that she will be always. Why did all these angels show up for me at these moments? After much soul-searching, I now realise that it was because I set aside my strong and brave persona, and laid to rest my big, fat ego which was constantly telling me that I could do it all my myself. I now declare that I cannot do it all myself, and I’m proud to say so. (Recently, I asked another ‘someone’ to help me edit my articles for grammar, and she has decided to become the vehicle for my self-discovery.) I gave all of them permission and authority to be my angels. And they took it upon themselves to be so much more! Why do I have so many angels in my life? This was a particularly difficult one to answer, and I kept going back to my default ‘lucky’ mindset (not to say that I am not incredibly lucky and blessed). But then, so are so many other people! The answer came to me when I was coaching a client, and as a jolt of lightning, I realised it’s because I totally deserve them!!! Of course, I’m blessed, but its at least a little to do with ‘Who I am’! I now realise that I have always been there for the people in my life, as someone pointed out to me this very morning. I want to thank you, my angels, the ones I’ve mentioned and the ones I’ve not; you know who you are. (I’ve taken the liberty of using the feminine gender for all of you; I know you wouldn’t like to be identified), but I want you to know that you are that angel that walks on this earth right beside me. For all of you out there, do you have that ‘someone’ or an ‘angel’ here looking out for you? If yes, do ask yourself the question ‘why’!